Saturday, May 15, 2010

Blogging from the iPhone

This might be easier for me. I'll be able to blog while I'm nursing.

We still have thrush/yeast infection. We are both taking Diflucan for 7 days. I'm not in much pain anymore but her mouth still has white patches in it. It's so frustrating since I can't freeze any milk--I'm making plenty of it. Pedi said I can't while taking Diflucan.

We survived two graduations this weekend. S was so well behaved. Such a little angel! My little brother graduated from Texas A&M with a 4.0. He was one of only 27 kids in a class of 6500. I'm so proud of him, he's a smart kid. We also made the trek to my future sister-in-law's graduation from Baylor with a nursing degree.

I realized that I have to go back to work in a month from today. I'm dreading it. I never imagined that I would love being a mom so much. I'm not looking forward to missing out on all her firsts. I'll likely miss her first word, first crawl, first step, etc. Maybe I'll luck out and she will save the good stuff for the weekends. Regardless, I think I'll just have to tell the nanny to not tell me if she does something new so I get to think that I'm watching her first time. Of course, I know I'm just the kind of person that would wonder in the back of my mind if she's done that before. I'm going to have to suppress those thoughts!

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Monday, May 10, 2010

Tough Time

We've been having a tough time with breastfeeding. It's not easy. It's not easy AND I'm making plenty of milk. That's not the trouble--the trouble is that I have a yeast infection and it feels like knives in my nipples. Pleasant huh?

I'm taking Diflucan to try and clear this up. Savannah has thrush and she's taking Nystatin. I also was potentially developing mastitis and they gave me antibiotics for that, plus a nipple cream. I'm washing my nipples in a vinegar mixture after breastfeeding. I'm sterilizing her paci and bottles nightly. I'm washing the bibs, burp cloths, my tanks and bras, the boppy cover, etc. in hot water nightly. I've been doing this for almost a WEEK now and don't feel like we've made much progress. I'm so frustrated. I can't freeze any of the milk I've been pumping and I can't bring myself to total up all that I've sent down the drain. It sucks. So much for building a good size freezer stash before I have to go back to work.

I feel like we're back to the first couple weeks. My nipples hurt all the time. She's fussy while nursing. I'm so frustrated and I think about quitting multiple times a day now. But I can't.... She needs this and she needs me to plow through it. She's growing like a weed, last week at six weeks she was 11 lbs, 13.5 oz. I try to remind myself that she's thriving being breastfed and that this is the best thing I can do for her. Selfish me wants my boobs back. I'm trying to take it one day at a time. When I feel like quitting, I commit to one more day and it gets me through to the next day.

One day at a time.....

Otherwise, I still love this little girl more than life itself. She's growing so fast and becoming more and more alert every day. I love watching her take in the world. I'm so lucky that she's mine.